It has been a long time since I have written anything on this blog. Once again, I am preparing along side of nine other people to go on a mission trip back to Beius, Romania this summer.
During the preparation time for the mission trip, I encourage the team members to be in prayer to the Lord and to read the Word of God daily. A couple of weeks ago while praying for the team, the trip, and the work we will do...I asked the Lord to do something great while we are in Romania. Something that will impact our lives forever, so that we will never be the same. Then last week came. It has to go down as one of the worst weeks in my life. To look at me, my surroundings were all the same. I was still sitting in the same house, driving the same car, if someone just looked at me, I was fine. However, on the inside it was not the case.
Things were happening that I had absolutely NO control over and could not do much to change what was or was to come. Thankfully, God gave me Scott to be able to walk through life's tough times. I am so thankful for him! I kept asking God to take control of my fears, my anxiety and help me to trust Him. Scripture is always my best friend and the Lord uses His Word to speak into my life and calm my heart. Then came Sunday morning and our youth pastor was giving the sermon that morning and God used the Word to give me overwhelming peace during the service.
I asked the Lord on the way out the doors of the church, why did last week have to be so hard. He spoke to me in my heart and said that I had asked for Him to do something big and did I think that it would come without any preparation in my heart, mind and soul? However, you see....some of the things that happened last week are still there but I have to trust Him no matter what comes my way...the good, bad, ugly, beautiful, sad, happy and tough times. All of it....I have to trust Him in ALL of it..I want to be obedient to Him even if I loose everything. I want to see the lost come to know Christ and to have a heart that loves others more than myself. Today my heart is full of excitement and humbleness when I think about what Father has done for me. A song comes to my mind that reminds me of my journey last week...
